What to do

  Okay, so I quit the last job I had.  The woman was just not a nice person.  When I quit, she left me such a horrible voice mail full of profanity, that I can't believe she considers herself a good Christian.  Oh well.  I've had another interview for another stable.  It's a nice one.  There are a lot of clients, and some who are never around, so it would be nice to be able to work their horses.  I have a reception interview and have called a vet clinic about setting up an interview.  A lot of interviews.  I feel very, very stressed out.  I had thought finding something a few days a week would be okay, but I feel pressured to find more.  I was working over full time at the last job I had, and it was so disrupting.  I just don't know what to do.  I feel like I need to put my family first.  Yet if I'm away from them, how do I do that?  The boys are thrown off.  They don't see their buddies.  I don't see my friends.  How would I homeschool?



  Homeschool.  We are getting ready.  I still need to purchase my LA program and history.  I think my friend may lend us her TOG until we purchase ours.  I'll be sending in my letter of intent, so this year we'll be official.  I'm going to start reviewing soon and finish up both our Singapore 1B and the last few weeks of PR1.  Co op registration is this week, and we're excited to see what classes there will be.  We are also hoping to be part of another co op that meets earlier in the week.
  At the moment though, I have no idea where I'll get the energy to school.  I feel like I have no energy to play with my boys.  I have caught what my one guy has, so we're not feeling the best.  But the stress is getting to me.  Stress is so bad for you.  I have found myself clenching my jaw when I sleep.  I've lost at least five pounds.  I have no appetite.  I feel like I walked into a double edged sword when I started looking for work with horses.  I can't seem to find a good fit anywhere.  What I want to be doing is riding and taking care of a few horses.  That's what makes me happy.  It's a door I opened, that now I wish I hadn't.  I could close it.  If I found a job where I could afford to lease a horse, I would.  I just feel out of place.