Jupiter brings what?

  Sigh.  The planet Jupiter is in the Pisces constellation now, and next month also I think.  Supposedly, this is a good sign for us Pisceans.  I admit, I know little of being a Pisces-nver studied it much.  I know I love the water as well as the land.  Being near the ocean is like therapy for me.  I can stand at the edge of the water, and just breathe in the salt air.  Feel it wash over me, cleansing.    I love the open fields, that are full of gently swaying grasses, dotted with wild flowers.  I can lay there and stare at the sky.  Absorb the warmth of the sun, and feel the connection to the land we live on.   There's also nothing like the great wilderness.  Waking up to the clear and crisp, mountain air, surrounded by wildlife and endless miles of forest.  There is a heaven there as well.  I do not have a favorite, I just know that I love being in contact with the earth.  I absolutely despise flying or being in the air.  I know there are other factors of being a Piscean, and reading through them, I'd say I'm perhaps half of them.  When I compare myself to my sister, also a Piscean, we are like mirrors, in that we reflect each others strengths and weakness, in opposites.  A little about Pisces.
 
   In reflecting on the whole Pisces deal, I do wonder some days how much contributes to who I am and what I do.  I find myself currently knowing that February is approaching rather quickly, and that this past month, another moon has passed.  Tides have ebbed and flowed.  I had so much hope.  The rational side of me thinks I'm crazy.  The dreaming side of me, wants to believe that with Jupiter being in my sign, things may turn around.
  Next month is February.  And as I said, tides have ebbed and flowed.  Two years ago I conceived in February.  Two years ago in my second trimester, I lost the baby.  If last year was about anger, mistrust and eventually healing, then this year must be better, right?  But I have reservations about February.  Family will be visiting in March-same as 2009.  Mum will be visiting in May-same as 2009.  How can I avoid feeling like it's the same year-all over again?  I feel like I wake up daily, and everything is the same.  In some other plane of existence.  Or like a shadow that is chasing me.   Will Jupiter have any place in what will happen?  Who knows.
  I think tonight I'll stand under the starry sky, feel the ground under my bare feet and be thankful for what I have.