Unknown kindness

  There are some people of this world who have a pure soul.  When you meet them you automatically feel better.  You feel a connection.  Sometimes you need not even be near, to feel it, as a friend of mine found out.  Recently, a friend of theirs sent them a hand made, knitted bunny-for their rainbow baby.  This was a surprise for them.  The overwhelming joy they felt...to read it, made me want to write about it.  My own soul was happy for them.
   Because in my own struggle, a part of me realizes that there may be hope.  It's a very small part.  Waiting there in the shadows.  And yesterday, for once, I forgot my troubles.  My heart felt healed, at least for a little while.  I was able to visit with a friend, and her aura, probably unknown to her, is very calming and soothing. I'm not even sure how to thank her.  Perhaps one day I'll be able to return a kindness.

GMO battle continues

   I wanted to share the clip for the video of the Bill Maher show where he speaks about Obama backing out of labelling GMO foods.  I had the email this morning when I woke up via Organic Consumers.  Here is my old post about Monsanto- millions against... Nothing's changed.  Or if it has, it's just getting worse.

Reiki?

  Other than feeling like a ball of yarn, I feel a closing in.  A wall, with turmoil inside.  I'm doing all these things to help.  Herbs.  Running.  Kick boxing.  Writing.  Trying to let the stress just go away.  Trying to enjoy everything around me.  To relax.
  I pray at night.  That might be surprising.  But I do.  And yet each morning I greet the day with a thank you to the earth.  It's wonderful to stand outside and look up at the stars.  It's wonderful to stand in the morning sun and watch the flowers wake up.
  But, my patience is still thin.  Anger, that I had not before is bubbling and irritating.  I feel ragged and worn. A friend of mine suggested Reiki and I'm going to try it.  I believe that it will help open up blocks that I have. I have to believe.  Because at some point over the last three years I have lost an intricate part of myself.

Full Circle

  Well, co op is over.  But school is not for us.  I'll school through the summer, to keep things fresh.  Plus, we always do a lot of outdoor exploring and learning.
  As for other things.  I feel like I have come full circle.  I spoke about my marriage some quite awhile ago.    Does the trust and lasting love that gets you through the rough spots, eventually come?  And when?  After the children are grown?  In the beginning of your journey?  Because the journey changes.  In the past three years, I feel as if I've been to hell and back.  Personally at least.  This spring I feel the same way.  It's a pattern that we are stuck in.  And here we go again.
  For me, I don't know the answers to those questions.
 

Meanderings

  I'm never here, I know.  I have once more combined my other blog about health, back to this one.  It's honestly too much work for me to keep two, they are both part of me, I'm working now and making a serious attempt to write my book.  I'm going to make the effort to stop here weekly.